2 blog posts in one day? I must be going mental... I actually think I am, but more on that later.

One of my favourite artists is having a gig right now on a walking distance from me, and I'm at home, loathing on the fact that I'm not there. Why? Because I may have social anxiety or something like that. I'm not at the concert 'cause I don't want to face a bunch of people that are there and I haven't seen in a year. I'm weird, I have problems and I'm doing nothing to deal with them.
I mean slowly I'm pushing myself to situations like this. Yesterday I went for coffee with people I haven't seen in a long time, and it was great. But I couldn't go today. I'm always afraid of what people would say, what they would think of me. If I was left alone, which of course it wouldn't happen, 'cause I have great friends, but I have this gigantic fear in my head I couldn't deal with a situation like this.
I gave an excuse to myself that I've seen this guy live twice.

And now that I'm home alone trying to make myself feel better the only thing I can think of doing is doing exercise... WTF?? Some weeks ago I couldn't walk 1km, now I'm beginning to become obsessed with pilates.... (I still need to work on my cardio). I worked out this morning, I can't work out now. Or can I? Isn't that unhealthy as well? Idk... I don't wanna push myself to hard.

Fuck my life... 2 more weeks, and I'm out of this town.... I can't wait for vacations, beach and road-trips. (If the weather helps)